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Gym thoughts

every workout is like a cleanse last night I can kind of smell bad things coming out of me that i was surrounded by.
I think it is good to think about work outs of the cleansing process the sweat the thinking the meditation over and over again.
with time and single minded dedication many things can be done. when I completed my dissertation it was a process of working hard for a continuous number of years focused on something each month. I believe it is the same type of dedication when you want to complete a race or complete any other goal you have to set the goal first. you cannot complete a long term goal to you set it and dedicate yourself to completing it

Rhode Island Party Eating and tiny workout

Went to a party in greenwhich rhode island last night and totally pigged out. Chicke,drinkes and the chips were my worst ememy. I also had a piece of cake and well as orzo salad and rice and 2 chicken wings.. I guess at the end of the day it was not too bad my selections.

I was able to go to the gym earlier in the day and spin bike for 10 minutes and then do squats(3/7 on the free motion machine and then do calf extensions 3/7 @140lbs . I 72lbs  also did arm curls with the 70lb bar and tricep pressess at 3 sets of 7.

Overall for a day in which I almost took off it was good to get in there and burn 200-300 calories.

Mentally I do feel more focused and want to keep writing like this and also reflecting to maintain the inner focus. I think I may want to continue doing the ahh meditations that are listed by wayne on youtube.

last night I had a dream I was in an airport there was confusion about my bags

last night I had a dream  about being in the airport was confusion about my bags. I was in the gym having a good workout when I thought came across my mind it really is a matters moving past the circles that we put ourselves intos into our lives in order to grow. there's so many things we get stuck thinking about stuck on we can move past but when we get ourselves out of the circle thinking about them we grow. so if you're aware of having outlets to break past circle patterns.
some people never get them done a lot of them in the end up stuck at a certain age or a certain level of maturity or even certain successful level. it means taking risks to improve. and focusing on taking those rescan focusing on improvement in verse or a well-orchestrated plan.
I've been better with my diet after my break down of fried food ice cream 2 days ago.
those foods make me feel like crap and have no energy. the gym needs to be a very solid routine. I feel like I'm getting into a rhythm like I did back in 2006
. it's important to embrace the big picture with everything if you notice people as they get older things seem to fall into place if they've had their mind on their goal. it is important to consider the environment which everything happens how things grow what they're encouraged by and the things that are the biggest influences. being patient with what you want and it's the same time developing the skills that you need are key.

following up with myself and finding quiet

Yesterday was a great workout at the gym. I ran 2.51 miles in 20 minutes and I also did the full round of weights(3/6 freemotion bench,3/6 tricep press@70lbs,3/6 arm curls @ 35 and 3 sets of ab crunches at 25lbs) I was also able to do the high intensity 3 /30 seconds on the spin bike for a total of 5 minutes and also
spent time in the sauna getting a sweat.

Tonight I jogged a very slow 1.9 miles. This was just to loosen up and get out there. I had an awful day eating because I skipped lunch. Because I skipped lunch I overate too late in the afternoon. This caused me to choose a bunch of snack foods instead of meals. Even though I am good for calories I am out of balance. I know it is mainly from the stress of thinking about a new job or role and if I need to make a change.

I have decided to just find some quiet and let the universe decide the details. I am looking to find a more supportive environment and also one with less direct stress. I have begun to start thinking about my real purpose. I have been torturing myself lately with things and I need to love and let go.

I want to be health and happiness and embrace success and have meaning.

I want to continue to find quiet to think in the next few days.

thoughts....

Dont be too hard on yourself...because you end up passing that psyche onto your children. The same goes for mentors and role models dont let their treatment influence you  negatively.

Needing to regain focus and conditioning workouts

I am noticing a correllation between how often I am writing about my workouts and diet and the actual quality and intensity of the workouts. This is the first time I have sat down to write in the past 3 days. Today is Sunday. Thursday I did 30 minutes on a exercise bike which is ok but I expected tohave done something which was more intense by today. Friday was a nice long 26 mile bike ride which was great for burning calories but not great for conditiioning. Last night on Saturday night I stuck in a 10 mile bike ride which is a decent minimal ride.

Overall though I do not feel as I am doing enough to build conditioning. Distractions and scheduling are the problem. Cannot give people who are not family too much time or distraction. We will see what I can do after I write this post today.

growing up is not optional.....


a true gangster is.........illiterate!!

looking ahead only a few days left before summer starts

was not able to post yesterday was very reflective day and worked out the gym in Winchester. I ended up being on the spin bike for half an hour. I wrote the first 20 minutes at a medium pace and then good alternating 30 second bursts first for the last 10 minutes. doing one burst every minute. I ended up eating two pieces of pizza and actually having fried chicken in the same day. I am learning how to balance my calories even when eating food that's not necessarily good for me. I am still on the tech hippie trip... making peace with myself and my energy for the next year. looking forward to connecting with more people and also playing at more conferences and taking my time to be a part of bigger initiatives. I'm still realizing how burned out I am finishing up my doctorate degree. I am better at finishing projects now. I also think I will be better at collaborated with more long term projects and also pushing to get things done under time restraints. but ultimately I want more time to work with myself to feel more self a field for the work that I do.

becoming a good tech hippie

Tonight I went to the beach with Dylan in newburyport and watched people fish and walk. We took a frisbee.

Sharing knowledge and building a variety of relationships is important in life. I think for awhile I may just work on developing relationships. it is important to have a variety of relationships outside of work and corporate culture and organizations. Outside of these confines it becomes possible to speak freely about ideas and approaches.

An example of this is Steve Jobs who had a variety of different experiences in which he understood the culture and landscape around what he wanted to do. These experiences helped him develop ideas which were advanced of the landscape he knew of.

I crave different experiences and networking opportunities. I need to continue to create these opportunities and embrace meeting new challenges and people.

I did not work out tonight but took some time to think. I also reflected that I think you are never poor if you care about your spirit and body. Seldom are people who care about their bodies for a good time living unhealthy fiscal and emotionally weak lives.

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